NSV Time:) Looking over shoulders

*Reminder* NSV= Non Scale Victory
I guess I never really noticed how thick I was through my upper back and shoulder area. Lately I've noticed I can actually look over my shoulders and actually see the back of it lol. Its kinda wierd to me! I catch myself looking back all the time at different things and will see the back of my shoulder and think ''Wow... I can't believe how small my shoulders are'' it kind sounds weird but I guess I've always just been thicker through there so now that I'm not I'm not use to it:)
Also I can now see my collar bone!! I don't know what it is with me and collar bones but I think they are sexy lol...I'm so excited to finally start seeing mine peek through.
I also saw this quote tonight and loved it...''If it's important to you, you will find away. If not you'll find excuses.''
Anyways thought I'd share lol

Exercising=Therapy

I've always heard people say how they like to exercise because its their therapy or meditation time, I however have never really thought about it that way. I like to exercise, usually anyways, but I never thought about it as "me time". Tonight I FINALLY felt that it was! I've had a few hard weeks with alot of family stuff going on and just have been really stressed out, when I'd exercise I would usually get some frustration out but never really thought about things. I think tonight was different because I was able just to go walking by myself! I usually go with my mom or a friend and usually have my little boy, but tonight it was just me. It was honestly so nice! I love going with my mom and my friend since its really the only time I get to actually talk to them for more than 5 minutes. But tonight being by myself at sunset walking around the track without anyone else around was exactly what I needed. It gave me time just to think. I blocked all the stressful stuff out and just focused on me for a minute. I thought about the how far I have come...and I don't mean that bragging-ly! But tonight I was able to do 2 miles in about 25 minutes, when I started I could barely walk 2 miles in 50 minutes. I had put on a old shirt that use to be pretty snug on it was a XXL and it was falling off my shoulders the whole time I walked and was so baggy, the pants i was wearing use to cut into me and make it so I couldn't stand wearing them...sad thing is they have an elastic waist band...and tonight they weren't falling off but felt so big in the legs I felt like I had bell bottoms on. I haven't noticed clothes being to big in awhile due to me being plateaued for so long, so tonight it was nice to actually see it. I was also able just to think about what I need to do to stick to my exercise programs and keep eating the right way. I had a small victory yesterday when it came to food. I am always, always over on my sugar! I've never had a day where I was under or at the number its suppose to be at until yesterday! I was 15 grams UNDER!! I know it was mostly because of all the working out I did yesterday but I've had days like that before and would always be above my sugar limit. I was pretty proud of myself for being under! I need to have more days like that.

I was so grateful to have a night like tonight where I could just think about the things that I want and need to do for me, not for selfish reasons, but to make sure I stay healthy. One of the things that had me worrying was my grandma had to have 3 stints put in her heart...the doctor said she could have easily had a heart attack at any moment and that she was lucky she hadn't had one. He said even if she would have had anything like french fries or ice cream it could have given her one and she probably would have died. It made me sick to hear that! But I'm so grateful they were able to fix the problem!! Its scary to me because when doctors have me fill out my family history with all the different diseases and the little box by them all your suppose to check if you have family history of it, well heart problems was the only box I didn't have to check last time, and now that has changed! Between my mom's family and my dad's I have every single type of disease or condition they list in my family history...It scares the hell out of me!! I want nothing more to live a long healthy life and to be able to watch my son and possible future kids grow up! It gives me that motivation I have needed to step it up a notch and get out of my funk.

Skinny Jeans

I decided to order some skinny jeans last week...I'm a big online shopper so I always run the risk of ordering the wrong size. I ordered them from Walmart.com, since I'm still losing I don't like to go a spend a ton on clothes since I figure they'll probably get to big. For being from Walmart they are super cute especially for $16! They got here yesterday and I was able to get them on lol but they are still really tight around the waist, which creates an awesome muffin top! I think in about 10 pounds or so I'll be able to wear them comfortably. Yay for more motivation!! I'm hoping by Halloween I will be able to wear them. I also got my costume and it fit like a charm, it kinda surprised me since its a medium...i still can't believe in must things I wear a medium! The scale has finally stating moving down again lol still not back down to 70 pounds down yet but I'll get there:) and hopefully even more. I restarted my Hybrid yesterday and woke up today from my sore abs. Love that feeling! Hopefully I'll be able to keep it up...Thanks to everyone for all your encouraging words while I've been struggling! I really appreciate it:)

Stuck In A Rut!

I'm getting mad at myself. I can't seem to stop eating crap. And I need to! I know its the reason I haven't been losing and yet I keep shoving my face full of stuff that isn't good for me. I've been around this same weight give or take a few pounds since the end of June. I know most of the reason has been because I got comfortable. With people telling me I looked good and commenting on how much I've lost. I also got comfortable with the fact I'm in a size I can't never remember being. But even though I'm comfortable knowing those things I can't let it make me stop and throw it all away! I set a goal to lose 85ish pounds for a reason. I just need to start refocusing myself on that. I've been able to maintain at 4 pounds up from my lowest weigh-in...I'm grateful I've been able to at least do that. I am going to to reset my ticker to reflect my gain, I'm hoping that will help give me some motivation to get it back moving again. Along with eating better I need to stick to my exercise. I have exercised some this week but it feels like I have taken the week off, I'm hoping since it hasn't been alot when I start back up I'll see a lose. I know it may not be for a couple of weeks due to the fact CLX makes me so sore but I so badly want this weight off!!! I just need to focus on that instead of everything else going on in my head.

A Couple of Things

One) Scales suck!! mine died this week so I wasn't able to weigh myself  until friday. I felt certain I was going to see a lose but Nope! I'm still up a total of 4 pounds from my lowest weight!

Two) This week has been a crazy and fustrating one! I was traveling alot more than was originally planned plus had alot of family drama going on. Thus my first week with my hybrid was almost a complete failure have only done it 3 out of the past 6 days:( so I will probably do week one over!

Three) My eating has been going well..but since the scale is either staying still or going up I'm going to start ZigZagging my calories again!

Four) I love MFP more than ever:) especially most of my friends on there! Theres one impaticular I've gotten close with this week and is always putting a smile on my face! I honestly don't know what I'd do without my MFP's:)

Five) I have my motivation for the next month and a half! My Halloween costume:) it hasn't gotten here yet but I ordered it in a medium:s and want to look good in it! Here's a picture of it!

Before Pictures

I decided today to take my measurements and before photos for my CLX/TurboFire Hybrid 12 week program. I even got brave enough to take the pictures in my sports bra and shorts...which I still can't believe I'm going to post them! But I know this way I will see the results alot better:) and it'll motivate me to make sure the afters look a whole lot better!
I woke up so sore today! But it was that good kinda sore:) last night before bed I hopped on the scale and it was a pound lighter than my morning weigh in but then it went back up this morning..so I'm thinking either my scale hates me or its just my muscles retaining water where they're so sore. But I'm excited to see the scale moving down again instead of up. I had gained as high as 7 pounds but have lost 4 of that...now I need to get the other 3 gone and start working to lose the rest of it!
But anyways here are the pictures...dun...dun..dun.......

Finally!!

It finally came in the mail today:) And I can now say I love ChaLean Extreme:) I did the first workout about 2 hours ago and I'm already sore! The workout today was mostly strength training and my legs and arms were shaking by the time I was done. It felt so good though! I'm going to start my actually hybrid schedule on monday and just do my own thing till then. The hybrid schedule I already know is going to be tough, all but one day a week I have 3 different videos to do, and on the one I don't have the 3 I still have 2. Which means lots of calories being burned:):) If I decide to I may add in the HipHop Ab's workout on the day I only have 2 to do, but we'll see how I feel. I'm still way excited and hoping to have great results with it. I'll probably update on how its going with the hybrid schedule once I've made it through a week of it!

Hip Hop Abs

I got my HipHop Ab's workout Dvd's in the mail today:) and I couldn't get it opened up fast enough and pop it in the dvd player. Shaun T is hilarious!! He made me laugh all the way through it. The workout itself was pretty good, it kinda seemed slow to me but it still made me sweat like crazy! And I burned a good amount of calories 510 to be exact, in 30 minutes:) I can definetly feel it in my ab's tonight, they are sore! I only did the first dvd so I'm excited to do the others as well. I'm thinking of including it in my hybrid schedule with TurboFire/ChaLean Extreme...it would mean working out 3 times a day some days but I know the results would be worth it:) I'll update on it after I've done more of the dvd's!

''I Feel Good Naked''

So after the workout parts of the TurboFire dvds they run short commercials for all the other BeachBody products/workouts...I usually don't watch them but last night I was to busy chugging water to turn the dvd player off...and now I'm kinda glad I didn't:)
The first one was of ChaLean Extreme...which still hasn't gotten here! I'm getting quite irritated. But the commercial got me all excited for it, as if I wasn't excited enough about it. The transformations people have had are amazing, 40-60% of their body fat burned during the program and they all have flat stomachs now- and most had the pooch! I so want to have a flat stomach! I have decided I'm going to do the hybrid schedule if Turbofire/ChaLean Extreme...I found a 12 week schedule I'm going to use. I'm kinda addicted to TurboFire right now...I just LOVE IT!!! I'm hoping CLX will get here this week so I can start.
The other commercial on the dvd was for Shakeology. I would love to get that if it wasn't so darn expensive. On the commercial though there is a girl who loved it and lost weight on it..I can't remember how much...but something she said made me laugh. She said, ''I feel good naked...thats how I feel.'' This is my new goal!!! I would love to be able to look at my self after getting out of the shower and actually like what I see...I feel alot better than I use to about how I look but still have alot to improve on.

5-4-3-2-1

Recently saw this on a few blogs and thought I would be a copy kitty and do it myself! Hopefully you learn a bit more about me, and I hope to see it on your blogs so I can learn some more about you too :)

5 Words to Describe You
•Stubborn
•Emotional
•Passionate
•Dedicated
•Friendly

4 of Your Favorite Foods
•Chocolate
•Watermelon
•Ice Cream
•PIZZA

3 Proud Accomplishments
•Becoming A Mother
•Changing My Lifestyle
•Being Able To Say I'm No Longer Obese....and soon I won't even be considered Overweight!

2 Favorite Work Outs
•TurboFire:)
•Any interval training workout

1 Thing to Expect From My Blog
•My response! I read every comment posted on my blog, and I respond to every email. I love getting questions, hearing your stories, and just knowing that you are reading! I will always respond in an honest, open fashion to any email I get, even if it is a simple "Hello!".