Sunday, June 23, 2013

We May Finally Know

Sorry I've been MIA for awhile! We had the flu go through our house a couple weeks ago and then it's been one thing after another. Thankfully through all of it no weight was gained and even a little more shed!!

I have finally lost over 30 pounds! Only 17 to go to just being overweight again:) 

So as I have mentioned in past post I've been dealing with a bunch of medical issues. I've had a couple of doctors appointments in the past few weeks including an ultrasound and my doctor has a theory of what may have happened/happening.

First I'll summarize the past few months with my cycle...

Had my baby middle of July last year

Cycle came in September-November mostly normal

December spotted for three days over Christmas

January-mid April no cycle

End of April-early June bled with only 3 day break.

After the Ultrasound and going through all the blood work I've had done in the past year my doctor's theory is...sometime between December and February I may have miscarried. To him this would be very likely since I was dealing with all the levels in my blood not being normal and my thyroid level being high(which I didn't know about during that time). He thinks however some of the medicine I was on for my blood stopped the embryo/fetus from evacuating but it wasn't developing at all, thus explaining all the 0 hcg test. This could also explain why most my hormone levels have been all wacky too. When I finally was able to go off the blood meds in April and going onto the Metformin it kick started my cycle. With not only starting my cycle but also evacuating the embryo/fetus that is why I bleed for so long. 

There isn't a way to know for sure if that was the case though. The Ultrasound didn't show anything as of Wednesday that would be causing me to have any problems. My hormone levels are all currently in the normal range, this making his theory that much more plausible since they haven't been that way for months. 

Of course with hearing this though I've been a little emotional and it has brought back a lot of the same  things I felt when I had my miscarriage in 2011. There is a lot of fear and worry that comes with it. This time there is a lot of questioning because this isn't a sure thing and theres not a way of knowing that is what happened. So my head has been a mess the past couple of days. I do know, there were in ways, that things could have been a lot worse. Miscarriages are not easy and in no way am I saying they are or am trying to make light of it. I'm just thankful there wasn't anything that showed up on the Ultrasound that was damaging, this way we know we are still able to try and hopefully conceive. When we do start trying my doctor is going to be watching me very closely so we can make sure that hopefully nothing goes wrong, and if by chance it does I know it's because The Lord has a plan for it. I may not know why and may not even get complete answers like right now but I know there is a reason behind it.

Also if I my cycle doesn't regulate within 3 months we will be going on fertility, crossing my fingers my body just finally has figured itself out!

Whew...now that we got the heavy stuff out of the way...
for now I am just going to focus on trying to get healthier! I really want to start one of my DVDs since I've been slacking big time in the workout department, but cant't decided what one. Honestly I just think its because I know the soreness is coming....which is dumb because I know it's good to be sore. Just need to break through the road block I have at the moment! Once I decide what I want to do I'll hopefully get some pictures up!