Making the Food Diary Public

So I never, ever, ever thought I would make my food on MFP (myfitnesspal) public, but today I said what the heck and did it!

Now I really haven't talked about my diet all to much but here it goes. Back in January I got on my scale and was at the heaviest I had been, I was very depressed about it and not happy at all. I went to the doctor for a check up to make sure everything was actually ok with me and that I didn't have something wrong. Sure enough there wasn't I had just been lazy. Well my doctor put me on Phentremine. Yes I know a "easy way out." But here's the thing, I honestly believe that the reason why the diet pills, and fad diet things don't work for people is because they don't use them the right way. People often will take these types of things and not change their eating or exercise habits, so they may lose but later gain it all back if not more. However, I believe if you use these things and actually change your nasty habits they can work. Why I believe this is because yes I was on Phentremine for a few months, but I'm going on month number 2 with out it and have still been able to lose weight without it. Now you all can think what you want, I don't really care this is just my opinion on it.

Now a little info about Phentremine, it boost your metabolism and suppresses your appetite. So the months I was on it I didn't eat very much. I wasn't hungry and when I'm not hungry I'm not going to force myself to eat. As someone who would eat everything in sight a few months ago I haven't thought that was a good way to go about it. When I'm hungry I eat, to some it may not seem like much but for me it feels me up. I don't eat my exercise calories back either. Now as for the month all most 2 I've been off the pill, as I have mentioned I have a little boy that's teething and a husband that works 12 hour graveyard shifts 3-4 days a week. Thus, my sleeping schedule can be all over the place! Since the beginning of April to just this past Saturday I was sleeping alot during the day, so I was confused as to how I should log my food and sometimes would even log it. This week has been lots better where sleeping is concerned and especially on being close on calories:)

I also believe on cheat meals and to not deprive myself of things. You can see in my diary there are days where I eat candy bars and sweets, but this is whats different for me. The past times I've "dieted" I never ate candy the whole time, but as soon as I got comfortable I stuffed my face with junk. This time I've had the train of thought its better to have things during the whole process and make it so my body is kinda use to it and I also feel satisfied! And to me its worked I've lost almost 60 pounds and have been able to eat chocolate and things I love like pizza but I do it on the days I know I have the calories to do it- or in other words MODERATION! I am still working on getting my sugar levels down. That has been my biggest battle but I know I can do it.

The reason I kinda decided to open my food diary was I figured it would make me be more accountable for what I eat. Knowing that everyone can see what I eat everyday makes me want to eat better and try and get everything in check. I'm excited over that.

However, I was worried others would judge and start preaching about not hitting 1200 calories a day or not eating enough. Well I've had a few messages from people with those types of things. My doctor is fine with what I'm doing, I've talked to him over it and he doesn't see anything wrong with it. So until you can show me a medical license I'm going to keep doing what he tells me too and what has been working for me.

I love MFP and everyone I've met! In no way am I trying to say I don't agree with what Mfp sets and what it tells you to do. I've been eating what my doctor had set for me since before I found Mfp. If I had found Mfp first I'd probably be sticking right along with what it tells me. It has been an awesome tool for me and I honestly don't think I could have gotten this far with out it. I love love love MFP!! I hope that this doesn't affect how anyone thinks about me or offends anyone. You have all been so great to me and I so appreciate your friendship and support. This may come off as a bit of a rant and it kind of is, but I wanted to stick up for myself and way my diary looks like it does and why I feel the way I do about the things I've done thus far.

10's

I haven't lost anything over the weekend, but i decided to try on my size 10 jeans I got for my birthday and they fit!!! I was completely shocked:) Then since it started to rain I put on one of my zip up hoodies and its now huge, its an old navy large! My hubby even looked at me and went ''Holy Crap!'' So today has been a complete boost for me:) I decided to take a picture, its not the best and kinda blurry. But at 57.2 pounds lost and in a size ten:)

4 Months Down

I'm now 4 months into this journey:) and what a crazy four months its been! As you probably saw on my ticker I am down 57.2 pounds!! I can't believe it. I took my measurements and compared them from a months ago and the results: 12 pounds and 6.10 inches. I couldn't believe I actually last more than ten pounds this month-four of those being lost this week alone. I'm so happy and feel awesome right now! To me I still don't look the best I have before, but I weigh less now than I think I have in at least 8 years. I decided to hold off on pictures until I hit 60 pounds lost:) hopefully that will be with in the next week. I am pretty positive I won't be able to reach my full goal of 83 pounds down before we go on vacation in seven weeks but if I could lose another 16 before then I'd be thrilled. As of today I have 25.8 pounds to lose to be at that goal of 83 gone. When I see the 25.8 come up it surprises me because it feels like such a small number to lose, even though I know its going to be a hard 25 almost 26 pounds to lose.

I can honestly say I feel good! Its been a long time since I could actually say it and mean it. There are times where I look in the mirror and still feel like I'm huge but looking back at pictures help with that. I'm feeling like myself again, I have alot of my confidence back and it feels wonderful:) Its also nice having my hubby tell me how awesome I look, he's always told me I'm beautiful and he loves me no matter what I look like, but its just been different lately. It makes me feel great about myself:)

I once again have to give a big shout out to all my friends on MFP, I know I've said it a million times but I honestly couldn't have done it with it out you all!! I'm very grateful I found the app. and the site:)

Next post will probably be the 60 down with pictures, unless by chance I have a NSV(non scale victory) before then.

Birthday Fun!!!

Thursday was my 22nd Birthday! I had a wonderful day and thank you to everyone who wished me a happy one. So as I have mentioned before my hubby had taken me shopping a few weeks ago to get some clothes, well little did I know he was going to buy me more! I ended up with a whole new wardrobe:) I have included pictures of all the clothes he got me so you can see. I also got a few other things as well as the clothes so I was very spoiled!! The scale also gave me a present with a pound lose, down 53.2 and into the 180's!! So Thursday nights are my Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice Night, so I told my hubby I wanted Pizza Hut pizza and bread sticks while I watched my show. I figured its my birthday I should be able to eat whatever I want! And that is what we did, he then took me out on Friday to dinner and a movie. We went to Something Borrowed for the movie, its really cute and funny! We then went to one of my favorite restaurants called the Bluebird and ate there. I was able to manage to stay under my calories on Friday so I was very happy over it since we had went out! So as you can tell its been a great couple of days for me, well besides mother nature decided she wasn't going to get away without giving me a gift too;) I'm hoping next week will be alot better week with the weight loss since I've only lost a pound so far and now with TOM I'm not getting my hopes up for loses over the weekend. Anyways Thanks again for the birthday wishes and of course all of the support you all always give me!

Aeropostale Shirts

Old Navy Shirts

Hollister Shirts

Wet Seal Shirts

Linen Shorts/Capri's

Denim Capri's (Don't mind my foot)

Jeans

Swimsuits

My Delicious Ice-Cream Cake!!

Me on my Birthday!! Barely into the 180's but its sure a nice feeling!!

Mini Goal Reached

I reached my mini goal of 52 pounds down by my birthday today:) I have been nervous I wasn't going to hit it but my body has been awesome the past few days and has been dropping the pounds. I know this won't keep happening but I'm going to enjoy it while it last!! The official lose right now is 52.2 which puts me at 190.8, so in another pound I'll be in a new decade and will see the 180's which I haven't seen in a really long time. I still am taken back when I get on the scale and see a one in front instead of a two, I'm hoping to never see a two there again!! But my next mini goal is to be in all my size 10 Capri's and pants with out any muffin top by the first part of June. I already fit into most the Capri's without any but I have a pair of pants that I still have a major muffin top with and a few pairs of shorts. So looking forward to fitting into them all and looking decent in them:)
One another note I consider this a non scale victory I guess, my wedding ring is super big, and flies right off my finger. So today my hubby surprised me with a new ring for mothers day! Its not a real diamond, its a lab-created diamond but its absolutely beautiful!! I had to get it in a size 5 and my wedding ring is either a size 6 or7. This isn't the best picture of it but gives you an idea of what it looks like. I couldn't believe how sparkly it was, I honestly don't think it looks fake but maybe that's just me:)

I hope everyone has a fantastic Mother's Day!!!

Its official!! 50 pounds gone:)

I'm very happy today!! Down 50.6 pounds:) Here's the pictures I promised!!

I don't have any of me when I first started.

Down:22

Today~ Down: 50.6 pounds Pretty sure I'm going to have a Kim Kardashian Butt forever!