Late night ramblings

Tomorrow I will officially be in my third trimester!! Unfortunately with that comes the insomnia! So I m up late and was on Myfitnesspal and got thinking about few things. The first being how I can't wait to be able to do 30 Day Shred and TurboFire again! I keep seeing my friends on there start them or doing 2nd and 3rd rounds of them and it makes me miss them. I also got thinking about what pants size I'll actually fit into once the baby is here. I'm really hoping to at least fit into my 12's. That was the first size I got into that I couldn't really remember wearing, I want to say I may have wore that in the 5th grade. Anyways if I could get back into those right after the baby is born I would be happy, and if by chance I could get into my 10's or 8's even better. I'm sure I'll have to work a little bit in order to get into those sizes though. It will be nice when its finally that time and I can just know for sure how much I'm going to need to lose. My last pregnancy I had gained about 40-45 pounds, 2 weeks after he was born I had lost 35 of that. So far I'm between 15-20 pounds gained right now depending on the day. I'm hoping to only gain 10 more, and that's even higher than I originally wanted to gain, but you never know how your body is going to be during pregnancy I guess. I'm hoping if I can only gain another 10 that I will be able to lose at least 20 pounds by the time I get cleared to workout again. I know the hard part of it is going to be finding the time to workout with a new baby and also to get my eating back under control and to only eat 1100-1300 calories a day, where I've been eating at least 500 more than that lately. I just have to get back into the right mind set because I don't want to go back to where I was and I know that's why gaining even though I'm pregnant bugs me. I know I have needed to in order to keep my baby healthy though and it will all be worth it when he is here! I just want to say thanks to all my friends on Myfitnesspal that still comment on my wall and post even though there hasn't been many days with good calories burned or days where I'm under my calories. You all still make me feel good and inspire me to get back on track once this little guy is here....so to you all a BIG FAT THANK YOU!! I will quit with my rambling for the night now:)

I feel like a whale!

I honestly think I'm retaining all the water i drink and the watermelon I eat! I had the flu last week and I did lose weight but it was off for maybe a whole 3 days. I haven't been eating near the amount of sugary things since eater has been over and have tried to watch my calories and haven't been doing to bad, but the weight seems to be pilling on faster than I would like. Something I noticed a couple of days ago though that is kinda making me feel ok, is that when I look at my tummy, naked, Its not the entire thing that is round and bulging out. The part that is bulging out is like where my abs would be if I had any lol. This made me feel ok because last pregnancy it was my whole tummy area bulging out and you couldn't tell I was pregnant really I just looked fat, until I was about 8 & 1/2 months. A lot of people still don't think I look very pregnant or even at all, I think I do more so because I have a picture in my mind of my stomach when I was at my lowest and just want it to be that way again. I thought I was so big still, and I know to some people I still was but to be where I am now I can't wait to be able to workout and get back there again!! I want a healthy and happy baby and happy to be pregnant so I'm ok with getting huge for another few months....but I am looking forward to the days when I have my baby and I can be back to my workouts and fitting into regular cloths again! Since its finally starting to get warm I have been more active since we are outside a lot or going to parks and have to run around with my little boy:) I think that's all for now though!

25 weeks:)

I'm now 25 weeks along!! I took the picture below today and I have to say it made me feel a bit better after seeing it about the whole gaining weight thing. I'm alot littler this time than last time:):) I compared pictures today and was happy to see the difference. I know I still need to be doing better eating wise especially after this last weekend the Easter Bunny left way to many sweets at our house!!

Update...

Since I was so down about gaining weight right now I decided to look online a bit to see if I could find something that would help me know just how much to really expect to gain and such. I thankfully ran across a diagram showing how much all the extra stuff I'm carrying weighs. Since I can't get the diagram to load here I'm just going to list it.

Blood: 2.5-3.5 pounds

Uterus: 2-2.5 pounds

Amniotic Fluid: 1.5-2 pounds

Placenta: 1-2 pounds

Fluid: 3-6 pounds

Breast: 1.5-2 pounds

Baby: 7-8.5 pounds

Maternal Fat: 6.5-9 pounds

Total: 25- 35.5 pounds

After reading this I felt alot better! I have alittle over 3 months left of being pregnant, and its the part of the pregnancy where the weight starts pilling on!! The site I found this on also said I should only gain about a pound a week which if I'm able to do that I should only have gained alittle over 25 pounds by the time I have the baby!! I'm so hoping that's all I'll gain! Anything less than the 40-45 I gained last pregnancy will be better though. I just hate seeing the number on the scale, which has been why I haven't weighed much lately. I think if I do once a week it'll help me stay on track though so I'm going to do that from now on. I have to be admit though, when I saw the chart and saw "Breast: 1.5-2 pounds" I laughed because I have gained so much there!! I have had to buy a new bra every month! I started at a 32DD, went to a 34D then 36D, yesterday I got my 36DD and the girls are still poking out the sides and top of it!! So on to the next up a DDD which I honestly never ever thought I would see! But I'm sure once I start losing the weight they will go back down to what they were before lol. Something that has made me feel ok is that my maternity pants still fit. Yeah they do have an elasticy waistband thing but they are kinda baggy in the thigh and butt area still:) They are a size 12 but I'm stil happy they fit and that I haven't had to go upto the next size. Anyways this is kinda just my thoughts the past few days, and me trying to be okay with gaining! I just need to make sure I'm exercising and watching what I eat and the rest is just upto my body what it does. I will work just as hard as before if not harder to get back down to where I was if not to lose more than that!! I just can't wait to get back at it, but I want my baby to stay in me until he is healthy and ready to come:) The doctor seemed fine with my weight gain thus far so I should be too. And also on a happy note no gestational  diabetes for this girl YAY!! 

Feel so "off the wagon"

I just feel so off these days! Its hard watching the scale go up. It probably wouldn't has much if I would get my butt exercising!! I don't want to make excuses but I am extremely exhausted every freaking day...I can't wait to get back to my normal self even though I realize even after the baby I won't be able to get right back at it. I miss TurboFire and all my other dvds so much!! But at this point the doctor told me I shouldn't be doing them at this point. Anyways I'm sorry for complaining! I just feel huge and like I'm just getting way off track. I still log my food on MFP but I'm just not to consistent on stay at or below my calories. In all honesty I haven't weighed myself for going on 2 weeks because I just don't wanna see the number. Last I weighed was 200 even which made me bawl like a baby! Even though that was only 11 pounds up since finding out I was pregnant. This is just me venting though so again I'm sorry!! One of my MFP's had this on their status today and I just loved it!! "First comes the dream, then comes the struggle, then there is victory. The problem is, most people give up during the struggle… never knowing how close they were to victory. The only way you’ll fail is if you quit. Never, Never, Never Quit"
I will not quit! I still strive to be healthy just not making all the best choices right now, hoping to do better though!!