November Stats

So I'm not completely sure on the numbers, about half way through the month I forgot to log them into Lilyslim to keep track. But from what my HRM and MFP says these should be close

• Burn 20,000 calories in November ~ Burned around 15,500
• Exercise 2,000 minutes in November ~ Exercised around 1,400
• Get back down to 175~ Ugh....so didn't do that!!

This month I sucked it up as far as my goals where concerned. Saying that I'm also in my first trimester which means no energy and feeling like crap so I have a bit of an excuse for it. So time to move on with it and start a new month with new goals. I've went a bit easier since I know how I've been feeling but these will also push me to stay focus and healthy, plus if i stick to these I've decided I'm going to reward myself with something nice...not sure on what yet lol, I'm thinking about maybe going and getting a massage since my back has been killing me. Anyways here are the goals for December!

• Burn 12,000 calories
• Exercise for 1,000 minutes
• Maintain my weight or even lose weight if possible!

Aww Pregnancy!

I can't believe how much this pregnancy is taking out of me! With my son I didn't get morning sickness until about week 9 and had pretty good energy all the way through. This time not so much! According to the calculators I've used when I found out I was only about 4 weeks along, putting me at 6 weeks now. I've been nauseous for about 3 weeks now, and will be until around 5 or 6 and then it'll ease up and then all I do is eat until I go to bed it seems like! I am so tired too, I haven't workout for over a week:( it makes me sad! I know I just need to and am hoping that tomorrow I'll just get up and do it! I finally had a decent eating day today and if I can just keep on with it I know I'll be ok and won't let the hard work I've put into losing all the weight I put on last time go to waste. I have gained a bit and am even up a pant size...ugh but I think most of that is from bloating and also because I haven't been working out. I just don't wanna gain the 40+ pounds I did with my son. If I could just keep to the 15-25 recommended pounds I would be so happy with myself. I have such a long way to go so right now I'm just thinking one day at a time...or at least trying to. I'm still really early on and not even to the 8 week mark which was when I lost the last one. I'm just hoping everything will be ok. I am going to a new doctor this time and he can't see me until the second of January so I'm hoping everything is on track and will be ok, also that means I'm not 100% sure how far along I am. And we haven't told most our family yet, just because I wanna be further along before we do...we are thinking Christmas will be when we tell them:) Anyways this is kinda a weird post but just whats been going on with me!

Going into Maintenance

So for about the next 9 months I will be in maintenance mode:) I found out last night I am Pregnant! Which explains alot about the tiredness and having no energy and feeling like crap. I am way excited about it though, yeah it would have been nice to hit my goal before this happened but I'll just have to work my hardest to not gain to 40ish pounds I gained during my last pregnancy and be alot more active during this one. I think that way it'll be easier to get back into losing weight after wards alot easier!! I will still update though:) From what I've been told you need an additional 300 calories a day for pregnancy, until about 6 months and then your suppose to add 100 calories every month after that. So for right now I'll only be eating around what I would be if I was trying to maintain. As far as exercise the doctor said I can do anything I was doing before just not alot of heavy lifting. I plan on using my treadmill alot, and on days I have energy doing the low impact versions of my dvds. I did 30 day Shred 2 days ago and I'm still so sore, of course I was going full blast during it but I know now I shouldn't to it like that again for awhile! We haven't announced it to all of our family/friends because we want to wait till I'm alittle further along until we do, but knowing its mostly people from MFP that read this I knew it would be ok to post it here! Just remember if your my friend on facebook...shhhh! I'll be due sometime in the middle of July:) so here's to the next few month of staying healthy while being pregnant and not giving in to all my cravings!!

The 8 People Who Will Ruin Your Attempt to Lose Weight

I found this on a site and laughed my head off, so I thought I'd share:)

It's damn hard to lose weight and just generally get in shape. Americans are getting fatter every year, and 80 percent of people who lose weight gain it all back. Why does it seem so impossible?
Part of the reason is willpower and genetics, blah, blah, blah, but a big part of it is other people. Here are some of those often well-meaning monsters you must overcome in your battle to get healthy.
#8. People Who Think They Are DoctorsTell other people that you're trying to get in shape, and inevitably, someone will chime in about how calorie counting is a waste of time and it's all about carbs, or superfoods, or "muscle confusion," or some other magic bullet that renders all other aspects of getting in shape moot.
These people aren't doctors and don't even play them on TV, but they still authoritatively dispense advice about how our bodies were made to handle all-meat diets or all-grain diets and outline detailed eating schedules they claim will trick your body and increase your metabolism.
What happens is they read a blog or watched Dr. Oz or a P90X commercial, and are now regurgitating their confused recollection of it as if it were fact. They don't remember half the details, they just remember how excited they were to find out something boring they previously took for granted (eat less and exercise more and you lose weight) was really untrue, and something unexpected and exciting was true in its place! This is, after all, Cracked's secret to success.
Strangely enough, it seems to afflict moms more than any other segment of the population, probably because women are more interested in health news, and moms are more interested than any other population group in giving advice and meddling in people's lives (their kids' lives, specifically).
If you can't tune these people out, it can really take the wind out of your sails when you're starting out on a simple diet and exercise regimen and don't see much progress at first (which is normal), and start to doubt if you're on the right track. With people spouting specialized theories at you about how weight loss "really" works, and why what you're doing is never going to work, it's pretty easy to just stop going to the gym the first day you feel tired.
#7. People Who Are Cartoonishly Supportive About Body Image
Everybody knows that society is oppressing us with ridiculous standards of body image, especially when it comes to women, and that we all need to do our part to reverse it by making normal-sized people feel confident in themselves and stop them from thinking they are fat.
That's totally correct, but all good things can be taken too far. Some people think that it is always 100 percent wrong to ever admit anyone is fat and have a confused notion that to ever agree with anyone that they are overweight is to become one of society's oppressors. If someone who is actually overweight says, "Oh man do I need to lose some weight," these people's knee-jerk reaction will be, "Oh no! What are you talking about! You're totally fine the way you are!" without even looking at them.
This happens the most when someone is just slightly overweight, like by 25 pounds or so, because that segment of the population -- slightly overweight women -- is the one we think needs the most coddling in terms of self-esteem, the most prone to spiraling into self-hate and anorexia at the slightest provocation. For some people, body image is a very sensitive thing, and a lot of tact is needed, but many people are actually capable of talking about being overweight as a matter-of-fact problem, like if their roof was leaking or their car broke down.
It can be a bit condescending when this kind of handle-with-care attitude comes from people who should know you really well and know you're not a fragile flower who needs any comment about their appearance addressed with gentle euphemisms and patronizing reassurances.
In practice, it's a big pain in the nuts when people exchange meaningful looks when you order a salad for lunch and tell you with misplaced concern that you're just fine and try to pressure you into getting a burger. It might be appropriate concern in the case of an actual anorexic, but not for someone whose doctor has told them they are 30 lbs. overweight and their cholesterol is in the danger zone.
#6. People Who Take Food Too Personally

Food isn't just food in our culture, or in anyone's. Weddings always come with banquets, family get-togethers on Thanksgiving and Christmas are centered around elaborate meals with specific dishes, birthdays require cakes, big political and business deals are made at power lunches, and first dates are almost always about judging the other person's restaurant behavior.
So yeah, food means more than food to everyone, whether they know it or not. Again, some people take a normal thing too far and become absolutely dogmatic about what food means. If we don't have a Thanksgiving turkey this year it's not a real Thanksgiving! If Grandma doesn't make her secret cranberry sauce recipe, Christmas is ruined! If someone doesn't eat your birthday cake, they don't really care about your birthday! This can only mean they wish you were never born!
So if you're on a diet, or you have food allergies, or you're a vegan, and you have to turn down a slice of someone's birthday cake, some people can take it as some kind of personal statement against them. Even worse are the birthday police, where it's not even their birthday, but they feel obligated to get offended on behalf of the birthday person and sometimes jokingly pressure you with, "Oh come on, it's Eric's birthday. He only has a birthday once a year."
The problem is that the 40 people in your department at work might have birthdays up to 40 times a year, and 40 days of cake (plus holidays and anniversaries and weddings and cruises) can really do some damage to a diet. And if I eat Eric's cake but not Jane's cake, that's going to send even more of an unintended social message.
#5. People Who Never Think It's Good Enough

Everyone knows about the stereotypical Asian parent that sees their kid's straight-A report card and asks, "Why no A+?" This kind of joke is apparently very funny to people without such parents but just depressing and straightforwardly true to people who have them.
Well, you get the exact same kind of people when it comes to getting in shape. Tell them you're going to stop drinking soda and drink only water, and they'll say, "That's not going to do anything, you're still eating burgers for lunch and playing video games all day." Tell them you're going to take a half-hour walk at lunch every day and they'll snort derisively and say, "You know the amount of calories you burn in one walk isn't even enough to make up for one banana, right?"
Pretty much nobody outside of movies ever switches lifestyles overnight, suddenly cutting fat from their diet, exercising five times a week, quitting video games and TV, swapping pasta for quinoa and steak for tofu. Almost everyone who's successfully turned their weight around started out with one "useless" change, like exercising once a week or subbing water for soda. (I put "useless" in quotes because dropping one extra large soda can save you 500 calories just like that.)
Losing weight after being fat for a long time seems like a monumentally impossible task, like climbing Mt. Everest, or in some cases, a flight of stairs. Either way, going from the way you are to being a "normal" weight can sometimes seem like a ridiculous fantasy. That's why when you succeed with changing one tiny habit, it can change your whole perspective. It's not this monstrous solid mountain you have to overcome, it's just a big pile of stones, and you just easily picked one up and moved it. It's not about heaving the whole thing aside with some supernatural effort, it's just about moving one stone at a time. And the first one wasn't so bad, so you're stoked to grab a couple more.
That's why when a "friend" says, "Ha ha, you dipshit, what good is that one stone going to do you?" you want to clock them. And maybe you should, that will burn a good five calories.

#4. Overly Spontaneous People

Sticking to an exercise/diet routine depends a lot on planning and routine. Some plans have a once-a-week splurge worked in, maybe a Pig-out Friday to let the pressure out, so you can get back to the grind on Saturday. If you're taking exercise classes -- martial arts, boot camp, yoga, pole dancing -- you might only be able to go certain days of the week.
Spontaneous people can throw this all out of whack. Friends who call you up and ask if you want to go out to dinner in the city -- and it turns out their reservation is an hour from now. Or friends who just came from out of town and forgot to tell you ahead of time, but they're leaving tomorrow. Someone who just realized it was so-and-so's birthday and "we have to do something." Or maybe parents that drop by unexpectedly with home-cooked dinners because "you're so busy."
Once in a while, spontaneity is great, but too many free spirits, helpful parents and poor planners in your life can add up to four pig-out nights a week, a month of missing kung fu classes and a completely sabotaged diet.
#3. Family Members Who Are Not On A Diet

The people most in a position to ruin your diet without meaning to are family members that aren't on a diet. They don't have to be sadists who keep going, "Mmmmmmm," while eating burgers in front of you. Even if they're totally supportive of your diet, there are just logistical problems.
Say you want to go out for breakfast, and they want to go down to the local greasy spoon diner because you can all objectively agree they have the best breakfast in town, with the bacon and the eggs and the omelets and what, no dish under 2,000 calories. Maybe you could get away with ordering a bowl of fruit but the waitress would look at you funny and the fruit would smell funny and appear to be about 10 days old.
On the other hand, the places that meet your diet plan are places like Subway, and forcing a spouse to eat at Subway with you counts as domestic abuse in many states.
If you cook at home, it's not really practical to make separate dishes for each person, so in reality, you pretty much get to go vegetarian with your spouse or your spouse doesn't go vegetarian. Even if you're just cutting fat, you can't cut the heavy cream out of just your bowl of clam chowder and not the rest of the pot. (Note: If you can think of a way to do this, please let me know.)
It's not completely impossible to switch to a healthy diet without your family taking one for the team and sacrificing some delicious foods from their diet, but being able to do it usually takes some convoluted planning or just black magic.
#2. People Who Make Fun Of Your Stupid Exercise Routine

I'm not saying it's wrong to make fun of people for doing Jazzercise, Tae-bo, Zumba, yoga, powerwalking, soccer, pole dancing fitness or martial arts as an adult, and we as Americans have a duty to come up with humorous quips about our friends' manhood or coolness or funny-looking neon-colored exercise gear, in order to save our declining mainstream sports.
But if your friend is a perennial couch potato who's finally found the motivation to exercise through country line dancing aerobics, after failing to stick with jogging, walking, MMA and any other cool-people-acceptable exercises, you might want to think twice about whether you might be sabotaging his last chance to not die early of heart disease.
Or if, hypothetically, your doughy, physically inept girlfriend takes up kung fu, maybe you shouldn't greet her with, "Oh look, it's Jackie Chan!" and pretend to be scared of her. Because she might unleash a spinning tornado kick at you. And miss, and hurt her back, and then she can't exercise for two weeks. Is that what you want?
#1. Delicious People

Personally, I was making a lot of progress in my weight loss over the past week, ever since that big biohazard emergency. I guess the mandatory quarantine has helped keep out distractions so I could really focus. The weight has literally been falling off of me, like in actual chunks of flesh, which is a little weird, but I guess that makes sense, how else would fat people get thinner?
The only problem is that lately I just keep running into really delicious looking people, just really pink and fleshy, with brains that just melt in your mouth. They have to be like, a million calories. I guess I just need to start avoiding bunkers and fortified buildings entirely, since they're always chock full of tempting, tasty-looking people.
Damn these people, it's their fault I can't go anywhere these days. Well, that and the fact my feet fell off.

Curbing IceCream Cravings with...

Smoothies!! I am in love with smoothies right now:) A few weeks ago I found a mix at walmart and decide to grab it and try it. Its the Sunrise Growers-Pure Fruit Smoothies Strawberry Banana, it says you only have to add water to it but I like it better my way lol, because I like to have ice in mine and I sometimes add extra stuff in like this...
Ingredients:
1/2 package of Sunrise Growers Smoothie Mix
1-2 TSP. of Frozen Orange Juice Concentrate (Optional)
1/2 Banana(Optional)
6-8 ice cubes

Instructions:
*Put everything in the Blender and blend it on the drink/puree setting.
*Pour into a cup and enjoy!!

Nutritional Facts:
*With Optional Items (Makes about 16oz.)*
Calories: 215
Fat: .2g
  Saturated Fat: .1g
  Trans Fat: 0
Sodium: 6mg
Potassium: 624.1mg
Carbs: 48.9g
  Sugars: 40.4g*
Protien: 1.5g
Vitamin C: 93% of DV
* Only 5g of White Sugar, all other is from fruit.

*Without Optional Items(Makes about 10oz.)*
Calories:150
Fat:0
Sodium: 5mg
Potassium: 240mg
Carbs: 36g
  Fiber: 2g
  Sugar: 33g*
Protien: 1g
Vitamin C: 70% of DV
*Sugar is all from fruit.

Picture isn't the best but gives you an idea

October Stats

Here are my stats for October
Goal 1: Burn 20,000 calories~ burned 21,308 Calories!!!
Goal 2: Exercise 2,000 minutes ~ Exercised 1,975
Goal 3: Lose 5 pounds ~ Lost 0....ugh

So I did well on the calories part and fell alittle short on the minutes, but still did ok. As for the weight I know its due to not eating well. I'm back upto 182 yuck!! But I know I can get it off If I just work hard enough and get my eating under control.
Here are my goals for this month!

Goals For November:
Goal 1: Burn 20,000 Calories
Goal 2: Exercise 2,000 Minutes
Goal 3: Get back down to 175 or lower

P.S. I'm loving my Bike and Treadmill...its so nice just to have something in the house to do while watching tv and that isn't to hard on my knees, I'm just loving it!!!

Home Gym!!

Today my hubby surprised me with a Treadmill and Exercise Bike! They are early Christmas presents, but instead of them just sitting in the box till then he decided he'd let me have them now. I'm very very happy about getting them! Now I have something to do when I don't wanna do my dvd's or the elliptical, and it'll be so nice to have this winter!! I now have a little home gym in the back of my kitchen...its kinda a tight space due to not having alot of space in our apartment but it works. And my equipment isn't the "best" or "name-brand" stuff but it does its job. Oh and the best part was he got both for $150-and they're brand new!!! I'm so so so so excited right now for this. I'm hoping it'll help me get out of my funk. I'm actually going to go hop on the treadmill now:) ^^Weights, Xl Glider, Ab Glider, Elliptical, Treadmill, Bike

Needless Suffering

''Never take anything personally. Nothing others do is ever because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering.''

I haven't talked much about my self-esteem issues, if that's what you can call it. I've always been pretty happy with myself in at least some way or another but I always have ways I'm not happy with myself too. Mostly because I compare myself to others, take what others say to personally, or care to much of what people think. Well that's STOPPING today!! And man does it feel good:) This mostly came from talking to a friend about high school and it reminded me of how much I use to care about what people where going to think of me for how I looked or what I was wearing, and how now I don't even have contact with more than half of those people, and don't even remember alot of the kids I graduated with lol....so all that worrying I did was for nothing! I find myself now doing some of those samethings and finally realized theres no point to it!! I stress way to much over what others think of me when in all honesty alot of them probably don't think the way I think they do. And I'm to the point where if they do think negatively of me that's their problem!! I'm not going to worry and stress over it anymore. I need to focus on what makes me happy and what I feel comfortable with! Which I'm starting to get more and more happy with myself everyday. I'm happy with the decision I made a little over 9 months ago to start getting healthier and that I've mostly stuck to it for this long. Yeah I'm still not quite comfortable with what I see in the mirror but I'm getting closer, and its a whole lot better than what I saw 9 months ago. This re-start has really helped me realize that I just need to focus on what I think of myself, and not to get carried away with others. And I'm happy to report the re-start has been going pretty well so far. I need to still cut back on somethings and get better workouts in but I know eventually I'll be back at it all the way:)

Re-starting!

Since I've been struggling the past few months I decided I needed to sit down and evaluate what i was going to do to get through it. Well I decided that as of today I'm RE-STARTING! Meaning that my ticker will be reset to 0 pounds lost and I am going to forget about the pounds I have lost previous to today for awhile. I feel like I was working my hardest and doing my best when I first began so maybe this will help me to strive to get the last few pounds I have off.
Don't get me wrong I am very proud for losing the 70ish pounds that I have and that will of course be in the back of my mind! I just feel like I have come so far and I want those last pounds off and I know if I work hard enough I can do it. So by starting again maybe it'll give me that motivation to start working hard again!
I'm also going to go on a fruit detox...well sorta. I'm going to have one meal a day that will have protein in it. I will probably also have oatmeal for breakfast. But other than those things it will be fruit or salad for the rest of the day for about 5 days, just to get my eating back under control!!
Anyways I thought I'd better put this on here so you all don't think I gain the 70 pounds back when I reset my ticker lol.

Last Year to This Year!

We had family pictures taken yesterday and so I decided to do some comparison pictures from last years. I sure do like this years a whole lot more than last years!!!!

Oh and did I metion I was wearing my junior size 9 skinny jeans in them??:):):)

Confession!

I've Completely Failed my CLX/TurboFire Hybrid...I'll do it for 2-3 days and then get busy and just end up going walking or doing the elliptical. Makes me mad at myself!! I have at least been trying to do some sort of exercise everyday but I just don't feel as good as I do when I'm doing those workouts. I mean I went walking twice last week in the rain and almost freezing temps. so I'd say I have the dedication lol. I had a bad weekend as far as food went, resulting in a small gain but hoping that'll be off in the next few days. This week I restarted my Hybrid schedule, and am going to stick to it better!! Things are starting to not be as busy so that should help with me finding time to exercise. Sorry I'm kinda rambling here but just wanted to get that out:):)

Stats For September

I'm pretty proud of myself this past month:) I had joined some challenges, which the other tickets at the top have been for lol. One challenge was to exercise a total of 1200 minutes in the month. When I first read it I thought, ''That's going to be tough!'' Well I'm happy to say I smashed it and actually doubled it:) I exercised for a total of 2,515 minutes!! Almost 42 hours!
The second challenge was to burn 25,000 calories in the month. I also though this was going to be a toughy. But I was able to burn 26,200!!
I'm so happy I actually did them:D

So I set similar goals for October:
1.Exercise 2,000 minutes
2.Burn 20,000 calories
3.Lose at least 5 pounds
I'll move the numbers up if I need to but I know its going to be a busy month so I decided to go a bit lighter on the numbers. Hopefully I'll surpass them though and get sumillar numbers to this past month.

In other news...I'm almost back down to 70 pounds gone woo hoo!! Yesterdays weigh-in I was down 69.6...but after a day of junk and being dehydrated I was up a pound. I'm hoping if I exercise good today and eat well it'll be off though.

NSV Time:) Looking over shoulders

*Reminder* NSV= Non Scale Victory
I guess I never really noticed how thick I was through my upper back and shoulder area. Lately I've noticed I can actually look over my shoulders and actually see the back of it lol. Its kinda wierd to me! I catch myself looking back all the time at different things and will see the back of my shoulder and think ''Wow... I can't believe how small my shoulders are'' it kind sounds weird but I guess I've always just been thicker through there so now that I'm not I'm not use to it:)
Also I can now see my collar bone!! I don't know what it is with me and collar bones but I think they are sexy lol...I'm so excited to finally start seeing mine peek through.
I also saw this quote tonight and loved it...''If it's important to you, you will find away. If not you'll find excuses.''
Anyways thought I'd share lol

Exercising=Therapy

I've always heard people say how they like to exercise because its their therapy or meditation time, I however have never really thought about it that way. I like to exercise, usually anyways, but I never thought about it as "me time". Tonight I FINALLY felt that it was! I've had a few hard weeks with alot of family stuff going on and just have been really stressed out, when I'd exercise I would usually get some frustration out but never really thought about things. I think tonight was different because I was able just to go walking by myself! I usually go with my mom or a friend and usually have my little boy, but tonight it was just me. It was honestly so nice! I love going with my mom and my friend since its really the only time I get to actually talk to them for more than 5 minutes. But tonight being by myself at sunset walking around the track without anyone else around was exactly what I needed. It gave me time just to think. I blocked all the stressful stuff out and just focused on me for a minute. I thought about the how far I have come...and I don't mean that bragging-ly! But tonight I was able to do 2 miles in about 25 minutes, when I started I could barely walk 2 miles in 50 minutes. I had put on a old shirt that use to be pretty snug on it was a XXL and it was falling off my shoulders the whole time I walked and was so baggy, the pants i was wearing use to cut into me and make it so I couldn't stand wearing them...sad thing is they have an elastic waist band...and tonight they weren't falling off but felt so big in the legs I felt like I had bell bottoms on. I haven't noticed clothes being to big in awhile due to me being plateaued for so long, so tonight it was nice to actually see it. I was also able just to think about what I need to do to stick to my exercise programs and keep eating the right way. I had a small victory yesterday when it came to food. I am always, always over on my sugar! I've never had a day where I was under or at the number its suppose to be at until yesterday! I was 15 grams UNDER!! I know it was mostly because of all the working out I did yesterday but I've had days like that before and would always be above my sugar limit. I was pretty proud of myself for being under! I need to have more days like that.

I was so grateful to have a night like tonight where I could just think about the things that I want and need to do for me, not for selfish reasons, but to make sure I stay healthy. One of the things that had me worrying was my grandma had to have 3 stints put in her heart...the doctor said she could have easily had a heart attack at any moment and that she was lucky she hadn't had one. He said even if she would have had anything like french fries or ice cream it could have given her one and she probably would have died. It made me sick to hear that! But I'm so grateful they were able to fix the problem!! Its scary to me because when doctors have me fill out my family history with all the different diseases and the little box by them all your suppose to check if you have family history of it, well heart problems was the only box I didn't have to check last time, and now that has changed! Between my mom's family and my dad's I have every single type of disease or condition they list in my family history...It scares the hell out of me!! I want nothing more to live a long healthy life and to be able to watch my son and possible future kids grow up! It gives me that motivation I have needed to step it up a notch and get out of my funk.

Skinny Jeans

I decided to order some skinny jeans last week...I'm a big online shopper so I always run the risk of ordering the wrong size. I ordered them from Walmart.com, since I'm still losing I don't like to go a spend a ton on clothes since I figure they'll probably get to big. For being from Walmart they are super cute especially for $16! They got here yesterday and I was able to get them on lol but they are still really tight around the waist, which creates an awesome muffin top! I think in about 10 pounds or so I'll be able to wear them comfortably. Yay for more motivation!! I'm hoping by Halloween I will be able to wear them. I also got my costume and it fit like a charm, it kinda surprised me since its a medium...i still can't believe in must things I wear a medium! The scale has finally stating moving down again lol still not back down to 70 pounds down yet but I'll get there:) and hopefully even more. I restarted my Hybrid yesterday and woke up today from my sore abs. Love that feeling! Hopefully I'll be able to keep it up...Thanks to everyone for all your encouraging words while I've been struggling! I really appreciate it:)

Stuck In A Rut!

I'm getting mad at myself. I can't seem to stop eating crap. And I need to! I know its the reason I haven't been losing and yet I keep shoving my face full of stuff that isn't good for me. I've been around this same weight give or take a few pounds since the end of June. I know most of the reason has been because I got comfortable. With people telling me I looked good and commenting on how much I've lost. I also got comfortable with the fact I'm in a size I can't never remember being. But even though I'm comfortable knowing those things I can't let it make me stop and throw it all away! I set a goal to lose 85ish pounds for a reason. I just need to start refocusing myself on that. I've been able to maintain at 4 pounds up from my lowest weigh-in...I'm grateful I've been able to at least do that. I am going to to reset my ticker to reflect my gain, I'm hoping that will help give me some motivation to get it back moving again. Along with eating better I need to stick to my exercise. I have exercised some this week but it feels like I have taken the week off, I'm hoping since it hasn't been alot when I start back up I'll see a lose. I know it may not be for a couple of weeks due to the fact CLX makes me so sore but I so badly want this weight off!!! I just need to focus on that instead of everything else going on in my head.

A Couple of Things

One) Scales suck!! mine died this week so I wasn't able to weigh myself  until friday. I felt certain I was going to see a lose but Nope! I'm still up a total of 4 pounds from my lowest weight!

Two) This week has been a crazy and fustrating one! I was traveling alot more than was originally planned plus had alot of family drama going on. Thus my first week with my hybrid was almost a complete failure have only done it 3 out of the past 6 days:( so I will probably do week one over!

Three) My eating has been going well..but since the scale is either staying still or going up I'm going to start ZigZagging my calories again!

Four) I love MFP more than ever:) especially most of my friends on there! Theres one impaticular I've gotten close with this week and is always putting a smile on my face! I honestly don't know what I'd do without my MFP's:)

Five) I have my motivation for the next month and a half! My Halloween costume:) it hasn't gotten here yet but I ordered it in a medium:s and want to look good in it! Here's a picture of it!

Before Pictures

I decided today to take my measurements and before photos for my CLX/TurboFire Hybrid 12 week program. I even got brave enough to take the pictures in my sports bra and shorts...which I still can't believe I'm going to post them! But I know this way I will see the results alot better:) and it'll motivate me to make sure the afters look a whole lot better!
I woke up so sore today! But it was that good kinda sore:) last night before bed I hopped on the scale and it was a pound lighter than my morning weigh in but then it went back up this morning..so I'm thinking either my scale hates me or its just my muscles retaining water where they're so sore. But I'm excited to see the scale moving down again instead of up. I had gained as high as 7 pounds but have lost 4 of that...now I need to get the other 3 gone and start working to lose the rest of it!
But anyways here are the pictures...dun...dun..dun.......

Finally!!

It finally came in the mail today:) And I can now say I love ChaLean Extreme:) I did the first workout about 2 hours ago and I'm already sore! The workout today was mostly strength training and my legs and arms were shaking by the time I was done. It felt so good though! I'm going to start my actually hybrid schedule on monday and just do my own thing till then. The hybrid schedule I already know is going to be tough, all but one day a week I have 3 different videos to do, and on the one I don't have the 3 I still have 2. Which means lots of calories being burned:):) If I decide to I may add in the HipHop Ab's workout on the day I only have 2 to do, but we'll see how I feel. I'm still way excited and hoping to have great results with it. I'll probably update on how its going with the hybrid schedule once I've made it through a week of it!

Hip Hop Abs

I got my HipHop Ab's workout Dvd's in the mail today:) and I couldn't get it opened up fast enough and pop it in the dvd player. Shaun T is hilarious!! He made me laugh all the way through it. The workout itself was pretty good, it kinda seemed slow to me but it still made me sweat like crazy! And I burned a good amount of calories 510 to be exact, in 30 minutes:) I can definetly feel it in my ab's tonight, they are sore! I only did the first dvd so I'm excited to do the others as well. I'm thinking of including it in my hybrid schedule with TurboFire/ChaLean Extreme...it would mean working out 3 times a day some days but I know the results would be worth it:) I'll update on it after I've done more of the dvd's!

''I Feel Good Naked''

So after the workout parts of the TurboFire dvds they run short commercials for all the other BeachBody products/workouts...I usually don't watch them but last night I was to busy chugging water to turn the dvd player off...and now I'm kinda glad I didn't:)
The first one was of ChaLean Extreme...which still hasn't gotten here! I'm getting quite irritated. But the commercial got me all excited for it, as if I wasn't excited enough about it. The transformations people have had are amazing, 40-60% of their body fat burned during the program and they all have flat stomachs now- and most had the pooch! I so want to have a flat stomach! I have decided I'm going to do the hybrid schedule if Turbofire/ChaLean Extreme...I found a 12 week schedule I'm going to use. I'm kinda addicted to TurboFire right now...I just LOVE IT!!! I'm hoping CLX will get here this week so I can start.
The other commercial on the dvd was for Shakeology. I would love to get that if it wasn't so darn expensive. On the commercial though there is a girl who loved it and lost weight on it..I can't remember how much...but something she said made me laugh. She said, ''I feel good naked...thats how I feel.'' This is my new goal!!! I would love to be able to look at my self after getting out of the shower and actually like what I see...I feel alot better than I use to about how I look but still have alot to improve on.

5-4-3-2-1

Recently saw this on a few blogs and thought I would be a copy kitty and do it myself! Hopefully you learn a bit more about me, and I hope to see it on your blogs so I can learn some more about you too :)

5 Words to Describe You
•Stubborn
•Emotional
•Passionate
•Dedicated
•Friendly

4 of Your Favorite Foods
•Chocolate
•Watermelon
•Ice Cream
•PIZZA

3 Proud Accomplishments
•Becoming A Mother
•Changing My Lifestyle
•Being Able To Say I'm No Longer Obese....and soon I won't even be considered Overweight!

2 Favorite Work Outs
•TurboFire:)
•Any interval training workout

1 Thing to Expect From My Blog
•My response! I read every comment posted on my blog, and I respond to every email. I love getting questions, hearing your stories, and just knowing that you are reading! I will always respond in an honest, open fashion to any email I get, even if it is a simple "Hello!".

My sneaky husband!

So a couple post ago I write how my hubby was trying to be sneaky and bought me zumba for christmas, but I found out. So today I walk down stairs and sitting on the couch is two Xmark adjustable dumbbells! With a note that says ''love you!'' He actually got away with suprising me with something:):) I'm so excited over them, I wanted some since people said they are the thing to have for Chalean Extreme. I had looked for some but the price tag was a little to much for my liking, but my hubby went and got me some he's such a sweetheart! I'm hoping CLX will be in the mail today...I'm getting annoyed waiting for it lol.
Oh also....guess who's ab's are starting to peek through:):) thank you TurboFire!!

Resting Heart-Rate!

When I first got my Heart Rate Monitor I couldn't believe my resting heart rate was around 95-100bpm!! And when I worked out at that time I would get it upto 190-200bpm :s kinda scary!
I went for almost 2 months not wearing it when I exercised and just used the estimations from my Cardio Trainer app. on my phone. I started using it again and could tell my heart rate wasn't as high anymore just by what my calories burned was...when I looked at my highest rate for my workouts it was between 160-170bpm!
On the Polar model I have, they have whats called a Fitness Test. Its pretty much to find your resting heart rate. Your suppose to do it before you've done anything when you wake up. I did it this morning and my resting heart rate was 67!!! I was so excited to see it was in the 60's. It puts me in the Good Fitness category:):):) who would have ever thought I could go from being in very poor health to being in good fitness in just a little over 7 months!! I'm going to strive to get my resting heart rate down between 54-60bpm by the time I hit my goal:) thats what's considered an athletic heart rate for women, at least thats what I've read.

Someone was trying to be sneaky!

So today I woke up to an email on my phone saying my paypal had authorized a payment. I had already gotten the ones from buying CLX and Hip-Hop Abs, but I thought maybe it was a mistake and they sent one again, and just didn't think much of it and went back to sleep. Well when I woke up it kept bugging me..so I looked at the email again and found it was for a Zumba Exhilarate Program. I freaked and thought oh no who's got my info!! So right as I'm about to call PayPal's customer care..my husband wakes up and ask what I was doing. I told him what was going on...he looked at me and says,''Sheesh nothing can be a suprise with you can it? I bought it to give you for christmas!'' I started laughing and just thought how lucky I am to have him and how sweet it was that he's already thinking about christmas!!
I'm super excited to get that though!! I've only done Zumba a few times, but absolutely love it!! I haven't heard alot about this new program..so I'm interested to see how it'll be:) only 4 months till I get it but CLX will keep me busy for 3 of those:):):)

New Programs:):):)

I bought a couple new exercise programs today!! I'm so excited!! Also a BIG THANK YOU to EBAY and their sellers for the awesome deals!!

Anyways the one I'm super excited about is the ChaLEAN Extreme!! I Love Chalene!! She is the trainer that did Turbo Jam and TurboFire..and I love them both! I saw this one in an ad online and decided to look at it a bit. Its a cardio and resistance training program...and you can burn upto 60% of your body fat in 90 days YES PLEASE!!! I'm SO SO SO Excited to get this program and start it! And looking at the before and afters have me even more excited about it! I've been wanting something new to do for awhile..even though I love turbofire....the popular ones on MFP are Insanity and P90X...I haven't really heard much about Insanity but watching the infomercials for P90X I know I wouldn't stick to it because the trainer annoys me in the few minutes I watch of it. And I loved Jillian for the 30 Day Shred and Ripped but she got annoying after awhile...Chalene is just plain AWESOME! I love her workouts and the way she motivates you...Sorry Jillian I have a new Favorite! And honestly I wouldn't mind having Chalene's body I mean look at her she's ripped!!

Look at these results!! I'm so excited!!

On to the next one! I also got Shaun T's Hip-Hop Abs! Don't know much about him besides he is the trainer for this and Insanity. This looks so fun though! I've always loved dancing, but there have only been a few times I've actually danced in public because I was to self-conscious to any other time. But I figured I could learn some new moves while getting in better shape and having fun doing it! Again I haven't heard much about this one but I believe it said something like you could lose 10 pounds in 10 days...again YES PLEASE!! The before and after's on this one are quite awesome too!!
So when I get these I will report on how I like them!! I have loved the Beachbody workouts I've done thus far so I'm sure I'll like these as well. Short workouts that burn lots of calories are the best!! So Thank You to Beachbody for that!! Well I'm off to exercise:):):)

Struggling~~but figured out the problem!

So I've been gaining and losing the same pounds since I hit the 70 mark...which lately seems to be my trend. I lose a couple pounds and then I go into a maintenance type mode. I've been thinking about why this has been happening. This week has been HORRIBLE food wise...I'm not going to make excuses. I just don't stop eating, which has been something I've been able to control. So I can't blame it on anything! Today though when I went to get something to eat it kinda dawned on me what I had been buying to eat though...mostly all crappy food. Hardly anything thats truely healthy...it may be a healthier chose but really its all junk!! Now I'm not as good as some of the people on the shows on tv that will just throw food away, so I've decided I'll just keep maintaining until the crappy food is gone, which is maybe 2-3 days worth. Then I will start back on all actually healthy foods!! I'm sick of the back and forth on the scale, especially when my exercising has been prefect this week:):):)  sidenote~I LOVE TURBOFIRE!!! So now that I finally have realized this hopefully the scale will start moving again and keep moving!! 13 pounds is to close to give up now!!

Quotes

These are quotes I have found that have inspired me on my weight loss journey and I hope they do the same for you.
Success is not a race, be patient. Success leads to success. Success is always a work in progress. Success doesn't come to you--you go to it. Success is a journey, not a destination. Focus on the process. Some people dream about success... while others wake up and work hard at it. Success is achieved and maintained by those who try-and keep trying. Everyday is a good day to SUCCEED! If at first you don't succeed-try, try again

When you get to a plateau, think of it as a landing on the stairway to your goal. And maintenance is a lifelong plateau, so a bit of "rehearsal" for maintenance isn't the worst thing in the world.

"Any experience can be transformed into something of value. Everything depends on the way you look at things.

You cannot have the success without the failures. What are stumbling blocks and defeat before you, can be stepping stones to victory if you remain determined.

In all your adversities there lies the seeds of equivalent advantages. In every defeat there is a lesson showing you how to win the next time.

I wake up every day with the realization that this is it, that there's only one shot at this life and I can either enjoy the ride and live it to its fullest and to my highest potential or I can stay the way I am.

Make the decision, then do something -no matter how small -toward accomplishing what you want.

Persevere and you will win the prize. You get whatever you settle for. Your past does not equal, nor does it dictate, your future.

One definition of insanity is: Doing the same thing again and again and expecting a different result.

Do you choose to simply know the path, or do you choose to walk it?

We fail because we don't strike the iron while it's hot. We don't take immediate action toward achieving what we want. We decide to wait until tomorrow, or next week, or even next month.

It comes down to a simple question: what do you want out of life, and what are you willing to do to get it?

Be specific in what you want, and use specific words.

Empower yourself, and become the person you dream about

Listen closely: the only time it's too late to change yourself is when you're dead. Until then, you're simply making excuses or lying to yourself.

If you didn't need a pill to get fat, why would you need one to get unfat?

You won't fail if you're not perfect, you'll fail if you're not committed to improving yourself slightly each day. Rather than aiming for being perfect, just aim to be little bit better today than you were yesterday.

We can reverse years of damage to our bodies by deciding to raise our standards for ourselves, then living differently. Old wounds heal, injuries repair, and the whole system improves with just a few changes in what we put into our bodies and how we move them.

"Anything is possible, It's your choice whether or not you choose to make IT happen."

What would you attempt, if you knew you could not fail? Discipline is remembering what you want. "You have failed only when you quit trying. Until then, you're still in the act of progression. So, never quit trying and you'll never be a failure.---Tommy Kelley

"If we defend our habits, we have no intentions of quitting them."

"When one approach is not working to reach the desired goal, that's not a reason to abandon the goal. Instead, it is time to devise another approach."------Ralph Marston

If you want what you do not have, you must do what you have not done.

Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels.

IT'S NOT ABOUT HOW GOOD YOU ARE BUT HOW BAD YOU WANT IT!!

Food for Thought: The starting point of all achievement is desire. Keep this constantly in mind. Strengthen Your Desire! Weak desires bring weak results, just as a small amount of fire makes a small amount of heat. Your body keeps an accurate journal regardless of what you write down... Every time you are tempted to react in the same old way, ask if you want to be a prisoner of the past or a pioneer of the future. ~ Deepak Chopra ~

He who gets up one more time than he falls, makes it through... Determination today leads to success tomorrow!

Quitting is NOT an option.

I can do this...I know I can. It's just going to take time & patience.

Start doing what's necessary, then do what's possible, and suddenly you'll be doing the impossible!

"My life tomorrow will be the result of my attitudes and the choices I make today."
In this age, which believes that there is a short cut to everything, the greatest lesson to be learned is that the most difficult way is, in the long run, the easiest! --Henry Miller

My world is expanding as my butt is shrinking!

"Don't sacrifice your future for a momentary pleasure"

"Never give up on a dream just because of the length of time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway."

A year from now, you may wish you had started today-Robert Schuller

"If you always do what you always did, you'll always get what you always got"

"Never trade what you want the most for what you want at the moment"

To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe. -Anatole France

Great changes may not happen right away, but with effort even the difficult may become easy. -Bill Blackma

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall" confucious

"The greatest thing you have is the 24 hours in front of you. The past is gone; the future is distant. Today you CAN succeed. Set a goal you can achieve in the next 24 hours."

"Only those who risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go..." -T.S. Eliot

"The fishermen know the sea is dangerous and the storms are terrible, but they have never found this sufficient reason to remain on shore." Vincent Van Gogh

"Obstacles are what we see when we take our eyes off the goal." Rita Davenport

"The odds of hitting a target go up dramatically when you aim at it." Mal Pancoast

"Things that seem hard are not always that hard. Put one foot in front of the other, and you'll get to the end."

"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your Destiny." Frank Outlaw

Discouragement "If you've invested enough effort and energy to get discouraged, you're well on your way to success. Discouragement is a certain weigh station on the road to any worthwhile achievement. If you know and care enough to be discouraged, you've made considerable progress. Learn what the discouragement has to teach you and then continue moving forward. It may seem as though you'll never make it, but in reality you're already there. Discouragement tempers and hardens you; it does not stop you. Reflect on your discouragement and you'll discover that it is a result of your commitment. You've already invested your time, your effort, your life. Soon, you'll reap the full reward of that investment. Let discouragement spur you on.

Motivation is born of desire. The stronger the desire for something, the stronger the motivation. Endeaver to keep the promises we make to ourselves... We deserve to be treated with the same love and respect that we would give to others....." (By CW on bootcamp buddies)

Climb The Mountain
I tried to climb the mountain today. As I inched my way up the path, I felt out of breath and had to turn back. I tried to climb the mountain today. But, It was so hot outside, I thought I had better stay in my nice air-conditioned house and rest up for tomorrow's attempt. I tried to climb the mountain today. On my journey, darkness started to fall and I was full of fear, so I had to return to a safe place. I was ready to climb the mountain today. But I had so may other things to do, so instead of climbing the mountain I took care of the much more important tasks; I washed my car, mowed the grass and watched the big game. Today the mountain will have to wait. I was going to climb the mountain today. But as I stared at the mountain in all it's majestic beauty, I knew I had no chance of making it to the top, so I figured why even begin trying. I had forgotten about climbing the mountain today, until an old friend came by and asked what I was up to lately. I told him about all my plans to climb that mountain someday. I went on and on about how I was going to accomplish the task. He stopped me and said, "I just got back from climbing that mountain. for the longest time I told myself I was going to try to climb it but never made any progress." "I almost let the dream of making it to the top die. I came up with every excuse of why I could not make it up the mountain, but never once did I give myself a reason why I could. One day as I stared at the mountain and pondered, I realized that if I didn't make an attempt at this dream all my dreams would eventually die." " The next morning, I started my climb. It was not easy, and at times I wanted to quit. But no matter what I faced, I placed one foot in front of the other, keeping a steady pace. When the wind tried to blow me over the edge, I kept walking. When the voices inside my head screamed, stop! I focused on my goal, never letting it out of sight. I kept moving forward. I could not quit because I knew I had come too far to stop now. Time and time again, I reassured myself that I was going to finish this journey. I struggled mightily to make it to the top, but I CLIMBED THE MOUNTAIN." "I have to be going," my friend said. "Tomorrow is a new day to accomplish more dreams. By the way what are you going to do tomorrow?" I looked at him, with intensity and confidence in my eyes, and said, "I HAVE A MOUNTAIN TO CLIMB."Author unknown
"When you name your fear you can face it. When you face it you can defeat it!" By CW on bootcamp buddies "Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles; it empties today of its strength." Author unknown
Someone will always be prettier. They will always be smarter. Their house will be bigger. They will drive a better car. Their children will do better in school. And their husband will fix more things around the house. So let it go, and love you and your circumstances. Think about it. The prettiest woman in the world can have hell in her heart. And the most highly favored Woman on your job may be unable to have children. And the richest woman you know, she's got the car, the house, the clothes....might be lonely. And the word says if "I have not Love, I am nothing." So, again, love you. Love who you are. Look in the mirror in the morning and smile and say "I am too blessed to be stressed and too anointed to be disappointed!"

"Winners make things happen. Losers let things happen." "To the world you might be one person, but to one person you just might be the world".

"Failure is the opportunity to begin again more intelligently" -Henry Ford

One sure way to avoid mistakes is to avoid taking action. But in the long run, avoiding action would be the biggest mistake of all, for nothing would ever get done. If you're going to move forward, you're going to make some wrong turns along the way. Don't let that stop you from proceeding. There will be many times when you'll look back and wish you had done things differently. Don't let that stop you from moving forward. Mistakes are bad enough on their own. Don't be so afraid of them that you avoid life itself. Every mistake you've ever made is now in the past. The way to move ahead is to leave them there. Learn from where you went wrong, then step confidently and positively forward. For now is your time to live and to act. By Ralph Marston

"There is no fate that plans men's lives. Whatever comes to us, good or bad, is usually the result of our own action or lack of action." -Herbert N. Casson

PROCEED What would you do right now if you knew that everything today would turn out perfectly? What project would you start, what person would you talk to, what problem would you tackle if you could be assured of success? Is there anything you're putting off because you're afraid of failure? Is there anyone you're avoiding because you're afraid of what they would say or think? There is no guarantee of success. But there is a guarantee that if you never go for it, you'll never have it. And even in the failed attempts, you'll learn and grow. There is no guarantee that other people will think highly of all you say and do. But that's their problem. Do you believe in the worth of your own pursuits? If so, then what could possibly prevent you from following them? If you're looking for a sure thing, then here's one --everything you achieve will come only from the things you attempt. In order to succeed, you must proceed. Today is a great day to start.

"Being defeated is often a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent." -Marilyn Vos Savant

Momentum can be difficult to establish. And that's what makes it so valuable. Because once you have it going in your favor, momentum can be hard to stop. With momentum on your side, small efforts can bring big results, and those big results can lead to even bigger ones. Yes, momentum takes some effort and commitment to put into motion. And it is very much worth the trouble. Take the time and make the effort to start something positive. Even though, in the short term, it would be easier and more comfortable to just do nothing, look past those immediate concerns. Look ahead to that point where momentum kicks in, and consider the value of putting it to work in your favor. Then get up, get going, and get to work on building that momentum. Start something positive, and create some valuable momentum. You'll be able to ride that momentum as far as you can imagine. --Ralph Marston

Don't When you've eaten too much and you can't write it down, And you feel like the biggest failure in town. When you want to give up just because you gave in, and forget all about being healthy and thin. So What! You went over your points a bit, It's your next move that counts...So don't you quit! It's a moment of truth, it's an attitude change. It's learning the skills to get back in your range. It's telling yourself, "You've done great up till now. You can take on this challenge and beat it somehow." It's part of your journey toward reaching your goal. You're still gonna make it, just stay in control. To stumble and fall is not a disgrace, If you summon the will to get back in the race. But, often the struggler's, when loosing their grip, Just throw in the towel and continue to slip. And learn too late when the damage is done, that the race wasn't over...they still could have won. Lifestyle change can be awkward and slow, but facing each challenge will help you grow. Success is failure turned inside out, the silver tint in a cloud of doubt. When you're pushing to the brink, just refuse to submit, If you bite it, you write it....But don't you quit! -Author Unknown

Hello, do you know me? If you don't, you should. I'm a pound of fat, And I'm the HAPPIEST pound of fat that you would ever want to meet. Want to know why? It's because no one ever wants to lose me; I'm ONLY ONE POUND, just a pound! Everyone wants to lose three pounds, five pounds, or fifteen pounds, but never only one. So I just stick around and happily keep you fat. Then I add to myself, ever so slyly, so that you never seem to notice it. That is, until I've grown to ten, twenty, thirty or even more pounds in weight. Yes, it's fun being ONLY ONE POUND OF FAT, left to do as I please. So, when you weigh in, keep right on saying, "Oh, I only lost one pound." For you see, if you do this, you'll encourage others to keep me around because they'll think I'm not worth losing. And, I love being around you -your arms, your legs, your chin, your hips and every part of you. Happy Days!!! After all, I'm ONLY ONE POUND OF FAT!!! -Author Unknown

You must act as if it is impossible to fail. ~Ashanti Proverb

"The road to someday, leads to the town of nowhere. Procrastination is the silent killer." ~Anthony Robbins

"Unless you try to do something beyond what you have already mastered, you will never grow." ~Ronald E. Osborn

"There are two choices really. You can either surrender to the pressures of life and the struggles of this particular battle.... or you continue the fight...and do so with even more vengence and determination to reach your goals then you did before. I choose the fight.....I know what it will get me." ~ Kim -Getting2Goal.com

"Focus on where you want to go, not on what you fear." ~Anthony Robbins "The minute you settle for less than you deserve, you get even less than you settled for." ~Maureen Dowd

"There is no one giant step that does it. It's a lot of little steps." ~Peter A. Cohen

"When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us." ~Alexander Graham Bell

"Clear your mind of can't." ~Dr. Samuel Johnson

"You can't be a winner and be afraid to lose." ~Charles Lynch

"Failure is not fatal; failing to change will be." ~John Wooden

"Men succeed when they realize that their failures are the preparation for their victories." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson
"That which we persist in doing becomes easier to do; not that the nature of the thing itself is changed, but that our power to do is increased." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Success is not a place that we aspire to, it is a process in which we live by. Often the only ingredient being the ability to not quit" -author unkown

AND IMAGINE Recall the things that have held you back. And imagine how you now can get beyond them. Think of the problems that have frustrated you so. And imagine how you can now rise above them. Look at how far you've come. And imagine how far you can now go. Think of all that you've learned. And imagine what you can now do with that knowledge. Consider all you've done in the past year. And imagine what you'll now be able to do. You're now in a better position than ever to imagine the very best. And what you can imagine will lead to what you can be.

OMG!!!!

I just had to post on this because I'm in shock and very excited about it. I just did the 30 Day Shred and didn't have to stop once!!!! Not even during the jumping jacks!!! I can't believe it, even when I moved to level 2 and 3 I wasn't able to do all the jumping jacks last time. I was expecting to do it and feel like I had been hit by a train, but that isn't the case. As I was doing it I kept thinking wow I haven't stopped once this is so wierd!! I was even doing the advanced moves most the time and being able to keep up:):) I can deffinetly tell the difference from just a few months ago and being 50lbs. lighter I'm so happy!!! Now its off to do the elliptical:):)

Workout Plan

Over the past couple of months I feel like my working out has been really relaxed or that I need to be doing more. I'm missing getting sore!! I feel like I was doing my best when I was doing the 30 day Shred or Ripped in 30. I decided since I have those and Turbo Fire to make a Workout Plan that included those three. So for the next month I will be doing one of those plus either walking, biking or the elliptical everyday. I'm excited and yet nervous about it! I'm hoping I will stick to it...I know it will help me lose these last 13 pounds, maybe not them all but I would like to lose the inches too:)

Hit the 70 mark:):)

7 Month Progress!! *Pics* | MyFitnessPal.com
^^ thats the link to the pictures:):)

Almost to 70!!

I don't think it had actually hit me until today what the numbers were on the scale..175.4!! I had see from 179 to 177 for the past few weeks but I don't think I realized that I was in the 170's until today. It seems like such a small number, I know to some its not but to me it is:) and it makes me so happy to know I'm only 15.4 from goal! Hopefully I'll be able to keep in my grove and not stall for weeks before it moves again! 2.4 pounds and I'll be at 70 pounds lost and will post progress pictures then! I also have a few NSV's to share! I actually ran for the first time last week...only 100meters at a time but it was still running lol...I've been doing the walking and then running thing for the past week every other day and I was actually able to just jog for 2 miles last night! I couldn't believe I was able to! Then when I got home my hubby wanted to go for a bike ride and we ended up doing 8 miles, and I wasn't all that tired when we first got home and I was very happy with myself for pushing through all of it, my legs feel like jello today though:) I can also do between 15-20 pushups now..never did I think I'd be able to. i also went to my first zumba class! I loved it, but I'm sure I looked ridiculous doing it. I so don't want summer to end! I love being able to exercise outside...and all the fruit! But I hope everyone its doing well from what I've seen on MFP you all are still kicking butt!!

After Vacation

So I thought I'd give a little update on whats been going on this week. The doctor did confirm a miscarriage yesterday when I went, no heartbeat but my hcg levels were raised..looks like I was about 8 weeks along, they are going to check in 2 weeks again just to be sure. thanks to everyone who has sent me messages..I really appreciate all the concern!
On a different note the 5 pounds I was up is now gone:) plus an extra .4!! Way excited over that..I feel like I'm starting to get into the swing of this again! Hopefully it'll keep coming off now. I just hit my 6 month mark and would love to at least have lost 70 pounds by my 7 month mark! I still haven't been on MFP as much as I would like to be..with commenting and stuff but hopefully I'll get back to being a good MFP'er soon:)

Kinda Disappeared For Awhile!

Sorry everyone I kinda disappeared! Its been busy around here since summer started and I just haven't been able to keep up with everything. As far as the weight loss goes I hit 65 pounds lost a few weeks ago...but since then I've kinda been maintaining. I still plan on losing the other 18 pounds but with how my schedule has been and vacation I just decided as long as I maintained I'd be ok for a little while. We got home today from our vacation..we went to Palm Desert California and stayed and the Shadow Ridge Resort, it was super nice! We also went into San Diego for a couple of days and went to the zoo and Sea world. I had alot of fun:) The whole time out there I felt like I had gained so much weight back..before we left I was up 3 pounds from the 65..when we got home around 7:30p.m. tonight I got on the scale and was up another 2 pounds. So I would only be at 60..but I figure I'll see what I'm at in the morning and give myself a few days to get back into the swing of things to see if it'll come back off, before I add it back on to my ticker. I tried to eat the best I could on vacation and was under calories for the most part..but not sure if I was on the fat. I have kinda got out of the routine of logging what I eat into MFP..I even lost all my days because I forgot to log in the day we went to Sea world I was upset with myself..but I'm going to start fresh on Monday and keep working towards my goal!
As far as hitting some of my mini-goals, I can fit into most the size 8's I have worn a few of them...they still fit kinda tight. But I am happy I can at least fit into them:)
Also something that has been kinda tough..I'm about 99% sure I had a miscarriage last weekend when we first got on vacation. I won't go into alot of detail, but I''m going to the doctor Tuesday to see what exactly is going on and to make sure everything is ok with me and to see if I did or am pregnant..even though I'm pretty sure I'm not. Its sure a weird thing to go through, especially since I really didn't know for sure I was pregnant..just had symptoms and figured I'd see if my TOM would hit or not and then go from there. Its been an emotional ride this week also and something I've been trying to get through without stuffing my face with everything I could..like I would have before.
Anyways I hope everyone has been doing Great!! I've missed y'all and I hope to get back in the swing of things this week!!

GUESS WHAT!?!?!?!

I FINALLY hit 60 pounds lost:) I don't know what in the world happened last week but I lost like 5 pounds..of course now the past 3 days there hasn't been any movement. But oh well I got to 60 pounds lost!! And so that means pictures!! They will be at the end of the post:)
I am actually down 63 pounds now and really hoping to hit 65 this week! My husbands grandmother passed away this past Friday, so we are having all the family come into town and her funeral Friday! And since alot of these people haven't seen me since I was at my heaviest I really want to hit 65 even though I know alot of them will already freak out! 70
On another note our vacation is in 2 & 1/2 weeks :s I'm keeping my hopes low for right now and hoping to hit 70 by then..I can't believe its only two weeks away now!!

Some recent NSV:
*I wore shorts out in public for the first time Monday since I was a little girl!!

*I'm feeling so comfortable with myself and loving how I feel!!

* I hit my 5 month mark of "dieting" on the 18th, still can't believe I haven't quit!

* My waist is the same size as my hubby's :) Now if only my hips would go with it!!

*I can't remember the last time I weighed what I'm at right now 179.8!

* My size 12's are getting big! 10's are still a little snug...and I can get into 8's but have a muffin top!

Ok now that all that's out of the way:) Here's the pictures!!

Finally!!!!!

I woke up this morning and wasn't to hopeful I'd see a lose on the scale because I had pizza hut yesterday. Well I was shocked!!! I lost .4 of a pound but its still a lose:):):) I'm so so so happy!!! Hopefully it'll keep coming off and I can lose another 8 by our vacation:) I apologize again about not have pics....TOM hit and do I haven't felt like taking any I will for sure post some when I hit the 60 mark though:):):)

Don't You Quit!!!

Don't Quit
When you've eaten too much and you can't write it down,
And you feel like the biggest failure in town.
When you want to give up just because you gave in,
and forget all about being healthy and thin.
So What! You went over your points a bit,
It's your next move that counts...So don't you quit!
It's a moment of truth, it's an attitude change.
It's learning the skills to get back in your range.
It's telling yourself, "You've done great up till now.
You can take on this challenge and beat it somehow."
It's part of your journey toward reaching your goal.
You're still gonna make it, just stay in control.
To stumble and fall is not a disgrace,
If you summon the will to get back in the race.
But, often the struggler's, when loosing their grip,
Just throw in the towel and continue to slip.
And learn too late when the damage is done,
that the race wasn't over...they still could have won.
Lifestyle change can be awkward and slow,
but facing each challenge will help you grow.
Success is failure turned inside out,
the silver tint in a cloud of doubt.
When you're pushing to the brink, just refuse to submit,
If you bite it, you write it....But don't you quit!
- Author Unknown

Doctor's Appointment!

So as alot of you know back in January when I started "Dieting" my doctor had put me on phentremine (a pill to boost metabolism and suppress appetite). I was on it for 3 months, but even after being on it I still go in to check-in. My doctor has wanted to help me get to my goal and make sure I stay motivated to keep with it. I haven't been to the doctor since April but today I went back in. I was nervous because I really haven't lost much in the past month but I had lost about 15 since I was there last. She was happy with that and she just talked to me about a few things. Some of you had said how you wanted to know if she gave me any advice about losing weight or breaking a platue. She really didn't give me to much advise but did give me a pamphlet they had in the office about weight loss and explained things in it to me.

In the pamphlet there is a graph of healthy portion sizes for common foods, I can't find it online and my scanner is being stupid so I'll just have to type it out.

Cooked Rice, Pasta, or Potato = Tennis Ball

Meat = Deck of Cards

Cheese = Pair of Dice

Peanut Butter = Ping Pong Ball

Fruits & Vegetables = Baseball

Then some other things it had in it I found helpful were:

* Vary your activities: very basic and I've been told over and over again to not just do the same exercise and to try different things.

*Break Workouts into 3 10 to 20 minute blocks through out the day. My doctor said this has been something she has had success with when she had been dieting. She would still do one longer workout of 45 to 60 minutes but she'd also do two 10 to 20 minute ones through out the day.

So this is my plan for the next week at least is to Stick to Turbo Fire. Each day you do 2 different workouts and there is usually one that is longer than the other so I figure if I do one of those in the morning, and one in the afternoon and then either go for a walk, the elliptical, or bike ride. That should be plenty of varying exercises and they would happen at different times in the day so its not just all at once! I'm hoping this will break this platue!!

I also had a couple of NSV's today!! NSV= Non Scale Victory

*my blood pressure was 114/77 :)

*When I went tanning I saw a girl who had been a cheerleader in high school and she looked at me and said, "Wow, your looking skinny girl!!" That kinda made my day lol.

*This was yesterday but I did 400 crunches is 8 minutes!!

Anyways I hope that someone else finds some of this information useful:) And I apologize because I haven't been able to take a picture yet, it seems like this weekend went by very fast and I was really busy.

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Ok so there still hasn't been any loss:( BOO!! But today I bought a pair of size 8 jeans and they fit!!!!!! I'm sure they are a brand that would be considered "Vanity Sizing" and they are a stretchy jean but I honestly don't care right now I got into an 8!! I also bought 2 new super cute swimsuits, and a skirt to cover up my nasty cellulite,YUCK! I love the patterns of them and hoping by next month I'll look better in them than I did today!
***Turbo Fire update: I thought the first day was tough, but boy was I wrong! The HIIT class are crazy!! I only did the HIIT15 class-15 minutes, and it kicked my trash! And they have HIIT classes that are longer than that! I haven't been able to do it the past 2 days due to the fact I got a really bad sunburn and yesterday I could barely move, today was a bit better-thankfully! I plan on doing it tomorrow and trying to do it with out any thing getting in the way for at least the next month! I have got to lose something by July 9th! I will do just about anything to lose some weight by then...ok well maybe not anything, but pretty close!
I will try and post some new pictures tomorrow!! I have a few things to do but I will try and remember to take some pictures:)
Hope everyone has a great weekend!! Mine is kinda ending since my hubbies work week starts tomorrow-kinda glad though because the days he's off are the hardest to eat well!

TURBO-FIRE

Holy-Heck!! Turbo-Fire kicked my trash tonight!! I thought I had gotten rid of Jumping Jacks but I haven't:( It is a great workout though! With all the punching I'm hoping that'll help my arms a little, I still hate my arms!! I found out I'm not coordinated at all..lol..I couldn't keep up with the moves and punch with the wrong arm all the time, I'm sure I looked ridiculous! Its so fun though, I love the music and some of the moves she puts into the workout. I'm hoping I'll get alot better at the moves over time. I didn't burn as many calories as I had hoped I would but the fact of the matter is I'm just not burning calories like I use to....I knew this day would come! I guess in a way its a good thing..but its sometimes frustrating not seeing such a big burn. I still haven't lost anything:s but yesterday was a bad day. We had a family get together and my eating was kinda out of control, but I turned it around today so hopefully we are back down to 184-ish tomorrow! FINGERS-CROSSED!! I really really wanna lose ten by the 8th of next month!! Anyways enough with the blabbering. So I started turbo-fire, thought I'd let y'all know how it went---IT KICKED MY BUTT!!---hopefully I'll have better news during the week at some point:)

P.S.--Burppies I HATE YOU!! and when I say HATE I mean HHHAAATTTEEE!!!

In a Rut!!

So I finished Ripped Finally:) Here are the pictures:

^This was me before I started The 30 day Shred
^This was me after the Shred and Start of Ripped
^This is me after Ripped:)

With Ripped I did it over 2 months and lost 18 pounds and 14.25 inches. In total the 3 months I've been doing Jillian plus extra cardio I've lost 34 pounds and 33.60 inches!! Thank You Jillian~even though your Satan! LOL.

Ok now for the RUT part of things. The last 2 weeks have been awful, food and kinda exercise wise. I've still worked out 3-6 days a week but with food I'm either way over or way under. And all I want is sugar!! It driving me nuts. I also haven't lost any weight I keep fluctuating up a pound or two and then sometimes back to my last weigh-in on MFP. I knew I'd hit a platue sooner or later but I almost don't feel like it is a platue because I've been so bad lately. I think if I can kick my butt in gear I'd start losing again, so thats the plan for this next week! I bought the Turbo Fire Program and am going to start that Monday, and since all the sugary snacks are gone now besides some freezer-pops I should be able to get back in gear. I so want to hit that 60 mark and I just haven't seemed to be able to, but my husband grandparents are coming out this next weekend and they haven't seen me since January and I want to be at least 60 pounds down, my goal was 65:s I have a little over a month till we go on our vacation and even though my swimsuits are fitting better, the bottoms still don't look very good and are tight. I'm going to try my hardest to lose another 10 by then if not 15! Anyways here's to get back on top of things, I'll try to be better about updating there just hasn't been much to update on lately.

Making the Food Diary Public

So I never, ever, ever thought I would make my food on MFP (myfitnesspal) public, but today I said what the heck and did it!

Now I really haven't talked about my diet all to much but here it goes. Back in January I got on my scale and was at the heaviest I had been, I was very depressed about it and not happy at all. I went to the doctor for a check up to make sure everything was actually ok with me and that I didn't have something wrong. Sure enough there wasn't I had just been lazy. Well my doctor put me on Phentremine. Yes I know a "easy way out." But here's the thing, I honestly believe that the reason why the diet pills, and fad diet things don't work for people is because they don't use them the right way. People often will take these types of things and not change their eating or exercise habits, so they may lose but later gain it all back if not more. However, I believe if you use these things and actually change your nasty habits they can work. Why I believe this is because yes I was on Phentremine for a few months, but I'm going on month number 2 with out it and have still been able to lose weight without it. Now you all can think what you want, I don't really care this is just my opinion on it.

Now a little info about Phentremine, it boost your metabolism and suppresses your appetite. So the months I was on it I didn't eat very much. I wasn't hungry and when I'm not hungry I'm not going to force myself to eat. As someone who would eat everything in sight a few months ago I haven't thought that was a good way to go about it. When I'm hungry I eat, to some it may not seem like much but for me it feels me up. I don't eat my exercise calories back either. Now as for the month all most 2 I've been off the pill, as I have mentioned I have a little boy that's teething and a husband that works 12 hour graveyard shifts 3-4 days a week. Thus, my sleeping schedule can be all over the place! Since the beginning of April to just this past Saturday I was sleeping alot during the day, so I was confused as to how I should log my food and sometimes would even log it. This week has been lots better where sleeping is concerned and especially on being close on calories:)

I also believe on cheat meals and to not deprive myself of things. You can see in my diary there are days where I eat candy bars and sweets, but this is whats different for me. The past times I've "dieted" I never ate candy the whole time, but as soon as I got comfortable I stuffed my face with junk. This time I've had the train of thought its better to have things during the whole process and make it so my body is kinda use to it and I also feel satisfied! And to me its worked I've lost almost 60 pounds and have been able to eat chocolate and things I love like pizza but I do it on the days I know I have the calories to do it- or in other words MODERATION! I am still working on getting my sugar levels down. That has been my biggest battle but I know I can do it.

The reason I kinda decided to open my food diary was I figured it would make me be more accountable for what I eat. Knowing that everyone can see what I eat everyday makes me want to eat better and try and get everything in check. I'm excited over that.

However, I was worried others would judge and start preaching about not hitting 1200 calories a day or not eating enough. Well I've had a few messages from people with those types of things. My doctor is fine with what I'm doing, I've talked to him over it and he doesn't see anything wrong with it. So until you can show me a medical license I'm going to keep doing what he tells me too and what has been working for me.

I love MFP and everyone I've met! In no way am I trying to say I don't agree with what Mfp sets and what it tells you to do. I've been eating what my doctor had set for me since before I found Mfp. If I had found Mfp first I'd probably be sticking right along with what it tells me. It has been an awesome tool for me and I honestly don't think I could have gotten this far with out it. I love love love MFP!! I hope that this doesn't affect how anyone thinks about me or offends anyone. You have all been so great to me and I so appreciate your friendship and support. This may come off as a bit of a rant and it kind of is, but I wanted to stick up for myself and way my diary looks like it does and why I feel the way I do about the things I've done thus far.